Not ready...

I'm not ready to abide by your rules, because it kills me, who I am, the soul, the voice that makes me distinct from her. I don't giggle and cuss just to fit in. I apply the knowledge that I have gained to make those either smarter or feel dumber. I'm not a snob and yes you can have fun with me it all depends on the way you do it. I'm not perfect, but if you think I am then I am so sweet, so innocent, but beware innocence can be cruel if you mess with it. I don't fall under the stereotypes of those with my status. I achieve the impossible with my God by my side. I don't change to fit your needs, but only my creator's. For His will is my will. I am who I am for my creator, and Him only. I liked, thought I loved, but I knew I did not because love in mine eyes is shared between lovers. I understand why you are attracted to her, she's not innocent, but she is sweet. She is loose with whatever you feel, and I can't blame you for it. But sadly enough I realized the reason behind it all. I'm too innocent for you to have. Besides I'm out of your league(lol). But seriously, it's not happening tonight...I'm not ready for you and I don't think I ever will be.

Just a Girl

At the age of 18 I should be allowed to admit to this world that i am just a girl. i'm not done and i'm not ready to stop growing, there's too much to do, and too little time to do it. I love what I do and the responsibility that I bear, but do not consider me an adult. Adulthood is too complex and complicating, there's too much involved in it. I'm not ready for half the things thrown and all I do is adjust. I see a machine and the best I can is finding how it works. I can link things together in no time, but I am not an adult. I do make my own decisions, but I do need the love and care I didn't understand when I was three. I am not going anywhere and am not turning into an over-crazed loser with no clue about the meaning of life. I am a girl just trying to live as a girl in this crazy so please understand me. I AM NOT DONE GROWING AND I DON'T WANT TO GROW UP. it's just too hard to be an adult, and i'm not ready.