I must confess

I must confess before this eats me alive. My conscious won't let me live it down. I am trying my best to cope, but the drug has worn off. I made one of the stupidest mistakes of my life. I got fooled into thinking I could get away with it. And I did for now. I don't even know if this will ever come up. I hope it doesn't; it's bad enough dealing with this myself, let alone have someone come down on me. I can lie my way out, but the guilt and the shame would return. This alone makes me feel somewhat better. I am truly sorry, and I know that what I have will not seriously harm my partner but I did mess up either. For that I truly do apologize.