Getaway

Have you ever felt the need to get away? I mean really, not just a vacation but to just get away from it all. I thought I finally got away from it all, but then it came back. Just as hard as it came the first time. I thought I'd be a lot more careful the second time. But naw, I just fell into the same trap. Problem is , the emotions are the same but the problem is not. I hate it when I can't fix the issue. then it resonate within me, like a bouncing ball in a closed room. It probably doesn't make any sense to a lot of people out there. I just want to cry, I'm so angry. I'm not even upset anymore. I'm at that stage where I'm ready to react. But I can't. My mouth is kept shut. Yet again, I stand invisible. I hear everything. Like the walls around me I have ears. But like the walls around me I have no voice. YOu think those around you would treat you like an adult. They instantly forget that you get hurt, by their actions. Maybe I'm blowing this out of proportions. I can not believe I'm back to where I started....well...not totally. For that I am grateful. I just didn't want the pain to return.