Undiscovered

If someone would have told me that I would be as happy/content(depending on the day) as I am right now about five years ago I probably would have called them a liar. I feel so much better about everything. I am passing my classes I see the results of my work. I know and feel the good coming through. I don't know. It's a good feeling. Of course like everyone I have my ups and downs. I do feel lonely at times. A lot of the time. Not necessarily lonely, more like incomplete. Somethings always missing. It keeps it from making it perfect. Whatever 'it' may be. Maybe me, or life either way it is not complete. But now I love fashion and I'm not afraid to explore me. I look and I like. I experiment in the lab and the result turn out like they are supposed to. I dress according to my own will. I follow my own rules. I am a leader in my own right. I choose to do right and live by my code of honour. I live my life without regret. I stick to my promises. I am not perfect. I strive to be perfect for me. I live for me and everyone likes that. I haven't reached my full potential. When I do my potential will be in motion. Therefore kinetics will take place and things will happen. I am not done, I have just started. I get up everyday with a purpose and a goal. I stand not defeated but challenged. I may struggle at times, but that's when the lessons are taught best. I see things that most may shrug off, I take pride in what I wear. I wear the most fashionable things, never outdated and willing to bring joy and life where there's death. I am a hopeless romantic who is afraid to love. I want to love, I want to feel secure in your arms. But it's just so comfortable to love. I have just begun to love me. When I 'm ready I'll love you fully and faithfully. If you can't wait then I'll push you away like I do the rest. But understand that I want you to take me away on a journey. Dance with me in the Castle of Versailles, better bring me on a cruise towards sunset on the Santa Maria. I do want to feel the bond that kept Juliet after Romeo until death, but understand that a discovery must be made when one is ready to face the challenge of the unexpected. Currently I am still exploring the land of my soul and I love what I'm seeing. Maybe it's because I finally see what you are seeing. Once this land has been discovered, I'll discover yours. Just be patient with me, there's a whole lot of me that has been hidden. There's so dust on the boxes, and the treasure is yet to be found. But I've got the map, incomplete yet finished with every step that I make. It may take me a week, a month, a year, a decade but trust me once this land has been explored from border to border my love will be ready for you. Fight to keep me, kill to love me and I will be yours until death do us part.