Undiscovered

If someone would have told me that I would be as happy/content(depending on the day) as I am right now about five years ago I probably would have called them a liar. I feel so much better about everything. I am passing my classes I see the results of my work. I know and feel the good coming through. I don't know. It's a good feeling. Of course like everyone I have my ups and downs. I do feel lonely at times. A lot of the time. Not necessarily lonely, more like incomplete. Somethings always missing. It keeps it from making it perfect. Whatever 'it' may be. Maybe me, or life either way it is not complete. But now I love fashion and I'm not afraid to explore me. I look and I like. I experiment in the lab and the result turn out like they are supposed to. I dress according to my own will. I follow my own rules. I am a leader in my own right. I choose to do right and live by my code of honour. I live my life without regret. I stick to my promises. I am not perfect. I strive to be perfect for me. I live for me and everyone likes that. I haven't reached my full potential. When I do my potential will be in motion. Therefore kinetics will take place and things will happen. I am not done, I have just started. I get up everyday with a purpose and a goal. I stand not defeated but challenged. I may struggle at times, but that's when the lessons are taught best. I see things that most may shrug off, I take pride in what I wear. I wear the most fashionable things, never outdated and willing to bring joy and life where there's death. I am a hopeless romantic who is afraid to love. I want to love, I want to feel secure in your arms. But it's just so comfortable to love. I have just begun to love me. When I 'm ready I'll love you fully and faithfully. If you can't wait then I'll push you away like I do the rest. But understand that I want you to take me away on a journey. Dance with me in the Castle of Versailles, better bring me on a cruise towards sunset on the Santa Maria. I do want to feel the bond that kept Juliet after Romeo until death, but understand that a discovery must be made when one is ready to face the challenge of the unexpected. Currently I am still exploring the land of my soul and I love what I'm seeing. Maybe it's because I finally see what you are seeing. Once this land has been discovered, I'll discover yours. Just be patient with me, there's a whole lot of me that has been hidden. There's so dust on the boxes, and the treasure is yet to be found. But I've got the map, incomplete yet finished with every step that I make. It may take me a week, a month, a year, a decade but trust me once this land has been explored from border to border my love will be ready for you. Fight to keep me, kill to love me and I will be yours until death do us part.

Mislead

You walked in a room
A flower bloom
Newly seen, newly converted
Visions unexplained
Secrets revealed
You saw for yourself
Still you don't believe
I had hoped and dreamt
But I did my part
I came up with a brand new idea
Hoping restlessly like a young gazelle
The reality is the reality seen
Yet again I was mislead

Random Story

Lexi and Marcus were best friends from high school. The friendship was unlike any other but good enough for the both of them. THey were both in tune with each other. Nothing was out of order and everything made sense. But lately Lexi began to change. She became more confident. She was able to bloom and become the lady she wanted to be. She was happier. Now she didn't realize the effect she was having on Marcus, if she had any, but lately things are becoming to be more stranger everyday. The movements done are weird. THe comments said are very unique even for him. HE had always been one of kind, but lately he was just pushing. At the end of the day Lexi just wanted for him to just go away. On the days he wasn't around she had peace. But it wasn't like she didn't like him as a friend. She didn't want to lose him as a friend. But he saw her as a girlfriend. Someone she couldn't be for him. It wasn't like that for her, but in his mind he saw an oportunity. Everyday he spent with her, was a chance to get close to her. Every moment he laid awake, was another moment spent daydreaming about her. He couldn't be the man of her dreams, but he dared to dream.