Sweet Lullaby

Sing me a lullaby, a sweet lullaby
Put my mind to rest
Restlessly fighting to keep awake
Make life dreams unattainable
Let my heartbeat sing a melody
A classical masterpiece of rest

Sing me a lullaby, a sweet lullaby
Undo the works of the devil's schemes
Let me lie into the night and dream dreams
Unseen, unheard, untouched

Sing me a lullaby, a sweet lullaby
Let my soul wander no more
Heal it from its core
I won't rest to escape

Just sing me a lullaby
Let the fruit of your lips
Intoxicate the very essence of my being
Addicted without a cure
To the wine you produce when you
Sing me a lullaby

I just want to talk

I don`t want to rant or anything, but I just needed to let things out. You know how I get sometimes. I feel like I am missing out on life. I don`t understand why I find myself to be so sheltered. Well it seems like I am. I don`t see the honour in being one of those girls who have not had anyone worth my while come to me...I don`t know. I sound dumb, and I know how feel and it`s contrary to logic. I am 22 years old, dateless and relationshipless is not supposed to happen at my age. I don`t see the pride in that. When I was younger and I heard a that anyone over the age of 18 still never had been kissed it was seen as a diss, and now that it`s happened I feel like I`m never going to that place when things start moving. Why is it that a 16 year old can get a date, and I can`t? That`s not fair. I don`t need something permanent, I don`t even need the relationship, but will anyone notice me? Like really will anyone see as a woman, ready to be complimened, flattered. I want to feel the butterflies at the sight of your figure knowing that for once I`m not the only feeling this way. My goodness, I want to hug someone knowing that my head is on his shoulder and he doesn`t mind, in fact that`s what he wants. I trust him to be support, and he trusts me to let him support me. I want to be able to write love songs based on emotions that I actually feel. Based on experiences that I actually went through. I want to feel loved by his touch and by his words of affirmation. My word is that to hard to ask? I don`t want to desperate because I am not, but I do want to be real, because I am not the only one feeling this way. I do have my standards, and my beliefs. I know who I am, who I am becoming and where I am going. But can I turn to him, the prince charming I`ve been waiting. When is he coming, how much really?

Breathe

I recently started freaking out as the Lord showed me a glimpse of what was to come if I stayed devoted to Him. I can't lie I really liked it, I liked it so much I started freaking out. But problem when I freak out I begin to doubt, because I realize that I get haughty, then I realize that I am filled with pride (through embarrassing situations) then I repent, but then begin to doubt of my abilities, but the thing is that He wouldn't have trusted me with this if it wasn't for me. I must have been qualified somehow, I don't know. But the trick is to just breathe. So far, it's been good, the future isn't here yet, but it will come. When it comes I'll be ready. But for now, I just need to do, like I've always done. Have fun with the gift and give God all the praise.